Dinner

October 03, 2018

We put up Halloween decorations last night.
I made a great dinner, set the table & called everyone in.
It was supposed to be a 20 minute bonding - we could all talk about our day.
Then BAM!!!!!! it completely fell apart.
Literally within 4 minutes.
Girls were arguing.  One of them melted down &
John and I just looked at eachother.
My immediate unhealthy perspective went to 
blame - blaming myself.  
What did I do wrong? What is wrong with our family?
I could feel my body fill with sadness and then anger.
Every other family is having a great meal, talking, bonding.
Why isn't ours????  
It took me till this morning - to actually about 5 minutes ago to step back.
I read Jesus Calling and ONCE AGAIN he reminded me of what I forgot.
To thank him for the struggles because I'm being taught something.
I'm getting stronger & I'm learning.
But so many times, especially during our dinner time last night it 
doesn't feel like that - I loose sight of that reminder.
Now looking back I realized I jumped on the rollercoaster, got dizzy
too and therefore couldn't step back. 
I was in it with them.
That's such the hard part for me with parenting.
We are supposed to be on the ground, two feet on the ground
watching them on the rollercoaster so when they get off & feel
dizzy we can hold them till they settle down.
But I got on the dad gum ride too.
Today is a new day.
I'll try again.


1 Response

Karla Toye
Karla Toye

November 06, 2018

Glad I am not the only one.. seems to happen at our dinner table as well. I think we all have nights like this but hopefully we ind the ground and stand tall and happy. Thanks for sharing!

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