I went to yoga today - a new place - called Black Swan Yoga - 

really loved it.  Check them out here:

https://blackswanyoga.com/san-antonio/

Todays instructor played music throughout the class.

This song came on at the end (a different rendition) but the lyrics

went straight to my heart.  I started tearing up it was nuts.

I kept thinking why am I tearing up and then the thoughts flooded

my mind.  Thoughts of growing up.

The song is from The Muppets and it is 1970 to a T.

My dad was there, my mom, my siblings, our dog, our old house - 

I miss it.  I miss it so much.

Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.  Bewitched (the show). Cheetos. 

Playing carpool with my bike.  Jogging at dusk with my parents riding their 

bikes behind me. My parents walking and talking after

my dad got home from work.

It was so simple then.

And it made me realize something - yes there were some rough times, 

dysfunctional stuff but most of what I remember are the comforts

of our home and my family.  The pool, the trampoline, the beach.

There have been times when I am so hard on my parents - why did they do

X and why did they say Y and I guess what they say about age is right...I'm softening.  Softening because I realize that we are all doing the best we can.

Life is awesome but damn it's hard too.

And then you tack on kiddos, jobs, your home,

the dogs, friends, family and it can be ALOT.

I guess my point is is that I'm thankful for the memories I have.

And for Kermit the Frog singing this sweet song that makes me cry

EVERYTIME I hear it!!

Although all white...

Love the contrast in materials...

A friend was talking about

a project she was working on and after describing

it she said "But it's a UFO"

A WHAT??

Yes a UFO - and Unfinished Object.

I mean, love that!

Love the simplicity of this.

Can you imagine being a kiddo

getting to sleep here - so cute!

I find parenting difficult.

I think it's difficult for me because I often feel 

two consistent things - 

1) That I am the only one experiencing the things

I experience

2) And fear enters my mind and I can go from A to Z.

A few days ago I was experiencing those

two thoughts over and over.  

(I have a severe case of OCD so my thoughts can get 

stuck on a "record player" and

repeat themselves until I find a way to snap out of it)

Anyway, my phone rang and it was one of my best friends from growing

up in Houston.  She is still in Houston and raising kiddos of her own.

She asked if I could talk and by the tone in her voice I knew it was more of 

can I listen than talk.  

It was the craziest thing - EVERYTHING she was venting about was 

exactly what I was mentally obsessing about - literally every last bit.

It was nuts!

It came to my attention after our conversation that the phone call was a

"God Wink" for me...a reminder that we all have 

more in common than we probably realize and we're not alone.

Really grateful for that.

Freaking out...

Do you pick up on the arrival of Fall in September?

Something about the light changes.

Something about the breeze changes.

The sound of fallen leaves changes.

I literally get giddy.

It's a sign of the best is yet to come - 

FALL!!!!!

Enjoy this new arrival...it's such a gift!

I'm really trying to be aware of my self talk

these days - I know, sounds nuts, but it's true.

You can have so many thoughts run thru your head constantly - 

right?  I mean I literally can go from 

"There is dust on my computer  - To did I send that email to the school -

To why can't I forgive that person - To salmon or crab cakes for dinner"

All in about 1 second.

I don't know if that is a woman trait or just a human trait or maybe just 

a me trait.

Anyway, sometimes my thoughts can turn against me - to all the negative

aspects in life and I'm trying to redirect those.

The past - mistakes in the past - can linger longer than the all the positive

in the past.

Saw this quote this morning and I feel like it nailed it - enjoy!

"THE MOST POWERFUL ANCHOR ON OUR POTENTIAL TO SOAR HIGH  IN LIFE IS THE PAST.  THE PAST CONTAINS THE DEAD WEIGHT OF EXPERIENCE, LEARNED BELIEFS AND ALL OUR MISTAKES.  LIFE CANNOT TRULY BEGIN UNTIL WE ARE ABLE TO SAY GOODBYE TO THE LEGACIES OF YESTERDAY AT WILL.  LIKE A FILING CABINET, THE PAST IS A RESOURCE OF INFORMATION FOR LEARNING, BUT IT IS NOT A PLACE TO LIVE. "

I always come back to browns - neutrals.

You just can't go wrong.